68, Zechariah 11 - Malachai 4

I am finally doing it!  I am honoring my husband.  He wants me to find a new job and I have been procrastinating for many many reasons.  Tonight I have sent out my first resumes. I plan on doing so every night until I am hired somewhere new with an increase in wages.  Thank you God for breaking down this wall for me. That is all I have to say today. That is the most significant change I have experienced so far.

God Bless. Pray for someone it is the best gift you can give.

Day 66, Obadiah 1 - Haggai 2

Day 66 was an incredible day for me. I only read one verse, and I think I read same one over and over because I couldn't concentrate.  I was becoming an Aunt again and it was very consuming.  I was so excited to be there because I have never seen a child being born before. I also felt like it was a moment for me to be closer to my sister in law (as of today I am leaving off the "in law") No matter what she is my sister for life. She has given me a great gift that I will always be grateful for. I didn't know what to expect during delivery but all I could see was beauty and God's wonder. If you ever read this post, Dionne you are amazing.

I couldn't stop crying. I am still crying today. Thank you God for life. Thank You for my family. Thank You for answering my prayers, because I have prayed all of my life for a sister and now I have one.

I am full of joy and I am so excited about beginning the New Testament in the next couple of days.

Day 64, Daniel 9 - Hosea 13

I had a girl's night out last night. My sister-in-law is having her baby this weekend and all the girls in the family and a couple of friends went out for Italian.  I had a good time. I had a real good time but for whatever reason I still felt very lonely, in the mist of all these people.  I felt like what I wanted no one else at that table wanted. What I valued no one else at that table valued. What I have been learning and devising as true these last 64 days no one at that table wanted to learn. No one wants to forgive. No one wants to value family for what they are unless they feel they have created the outcome. 

 NO ONE WANTS GOD TO TAKE CONTROL OF THEIR LIFE BUT THEY CONSTANTLY WANT TO ASK HIM TO SAVE THEM.

I don't know how to minister to others. Sadly I haven't asked God to show me how. I will now though.  I am in pain for perfection in God's eyes. Everyone else can think I am crazy.

My cousin posted this Prayer on Facebook. I love it. It is a prayer I want to live. 

A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Father God, thank You for the gift of forgiveness that sets me free. Help me to truly understand what it means to forgive so I can receive Your forgiveness. Search me today and have Your way in my heart. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.

Day 63, Ezekiel 48 - Daniel 8

Question...

Do we thwart the answering of our prayers? I mean if we are continuously praying for something, when we see it start to happen to we do something to sabotage it?  If my prayer is for a peaceful home and I have experienced 10 days of peace; I would notice, right?  On day 11, I might pick a fight with my spouse just so I can ask God why wasn't He answering my prayers. 

God please send me a new job... God I really need you to deliver me a job.
( Have you started sending out applications)

God please heal my relationship with my siblings...God I am still waiting on a break through in these relationships.
( Have you called them or sent them a card or even analyzed why you are not as close as you should be)

Lord, Lead us not into temptation... I am being tempted at every turn.
(How are you living your life have you continued down the same path or have you tried to change your ways and follow me.  If your temptation is sexual, stop partying and drinking to the point where your conscience escapes you.  If your temptation is lying, take the time to really think about what you are saying before you say it. Be willing to face the consequences of your actions.)

These are just some of the things that have been on my mind.  Fill your life with God and you will live a God filled life.

Dying to the desires of my flesh.

Day 61, Ezekiel 24 - 35

I am struggling with faith.  I heard some news this morning that really disturbed me. I mean it really disturbed me!  All it was, was an opportunity for be to trust God immediately and I blew it.  All I could see was condemnation.  Where is my faith? Where is my belief that all things work together for the good of those who Love the Lord and are called according to His purpose?  I am now incredibly ashamed of myself. 

A haughty spirit will be brought down and a man who thinks himself wise is worse than a fool.  This needs to be seared in my mind so that I don't falter again.

I am reading God's word but am I listening to Him...